This week has been really hard for several reason; some i can't pin down, some i don't want to admit, and some that i can't really explain.
I know that there have already been like 1,000,000,000,000,000,000 blessings in my life--even just this summer--but sometimes I get into a bad funk and i can't get myself out for a while. The best way for me to deal with it is just to talk about it.
thanks to all the people that have ever listened.
No one things really triggered it this time. I think it was a few things. I don't really know, but I do know that I don't want it anymore.
I need to set it free.
that is why i am going to make a list of all the things that I am grateful for, and list of the things i need to remember.
I'm grateful for/becasue
-Letters from Missionaries
-guitars, banjos, harmonicas, and accordions
-having a temple in the city i go to college in
-my classes are great
-this is what i have wanted my whole life
-porter park (even with all of its baggage)
-i get to go to school in idaho
-people here have my standards
-people support and aid your growth
-my teachers are really good
-i got to see christine into the MTC
-i got to see my dad
-i've already had several really great days this summer
-i think ill make good grades this summer :)
-zoology is awesome
-communications is a much better major than bidness
-choose your own adventure
-i don't care
-make it count. always. that motto will never die. (just be smart about it this time.)
This is what I need to do/remember, sometimes it's just hard.
This has been one of the most fun filled and crazy weeks of my life. Utah and back in less that 25 hours. My sister went into the MTC. Acoustic cafe.
LOTS OF TIME TO THINK.
Today i skipped religion today to do homework; I probably could have gone. I was going to go, but the very last second something told me to stay. As i was in the lab working though, I started talking to the girl next to me about missions and dating and boys and settling. What she told me was exactly what i needed to hear, and it was so cool because it was from a stranger, not just my friends telling me what i want to hear. We really need to be willing to be friends with everyone and talk to everyone because you never know when you could be answering someones prayer.
This summer is already crazy. I love all of my classes but I am in the l.i.b. constantly. It's all work I like though so i don't really mind doing it all day. I really want to try and get straight As this semester, and make my mom proud. She said if i do she will let me bring her camera out to school and take a photography class with it :). It's really nice to be able to go to one house and see everyone, even if it is sad not being able to live there myself. I think it will all work out though. I love rexburg and all of the people here. I really have been so lucky with all the friends that I have made here; sometimes I really don't know how i got so lucky. I'm sorry that I'm such a recluse sometimes. I just have a lot on my mind unually and I havent learned how to get it to stop yet. I didn't use to be this way, but i crashed a lot more then. I think I'm still just learning how to balance everything, but the one thing i have learned with out a shadow of a doubt is when you make time for church things, it gets easier to organize the rest too. I really have learned a lot in the last year and I feel like I've mad some pretty radicle changes. Maybe they aren't noticable to others, but I can tell.