0099.

Summer oh nine can mark the end of a year of radicle growth in my life.

One year ago i was:

skipping class and not taking responsibility for my life. terrible idea.

giving my number to random boys outside applebee's. bad idea.

on rooftops with boys. okay idea.

Now I am:

Going to class ever time it meets. Great idea.

still giving my number to people, but it seems to be working out better.

Sharing rooftop experiences with the right people. Great idea.

0098. Photographer: Rune Guneriussen

0097.

Today was, by far, the best day I have had in a long time :)

It all started with the entrepreneur conference, which was really inspiring and great and I am so happy the greed for extra credit caused me to go, because it really touched me.

after that this is how the rest of my day shaped up:

-the project that was 11 minutes late on tuesday, and therefor being docked 10%, is not on-time and not docked at all.

-African party :)

-Letters from Elder Weeks

0096.

DISCLAIMER: the computer I am typing on doesn't highlight typos, and I am not a very good speller, so please don't judge me.

Lately there have been several events that have caused a change in me--the kind that I think will stick around for a while. At least I hope it will this time. I attend a private university, Brigham Young University Idaho, for members of the LDS faith. Because of this, we have the oportuity to attend weekly devotionals that are given to the students and faculty by esteemed members of our faith. We have had some great leaders come speak to us throughout the years, and many great declarations have been made from the pulpit in the Hart auditorium. This summer I have made it a goal not to miss a single one. In this past teusday's "devo" we learned about the importance of our education and elevating ourselves to higher standards. Seince I had already made doing homework and avoiding playing my goal for the week, this message seemed extremely well timed and really hit home. This week I have had a drive and a desire to do my school work like never before; the funny think is that I am loving it. I made it a goal to avoid idle time and idle things, such as time wasted on the internet, unfruitful social interactions, and time spent doing things that don't have any benefit for me. It would be extremly hard to expaine all of the factors inside me that are driving me right now, but I trust them.
Upon returning to BYU-I this summer, I switched my major from business to communication, and I think that doing that was probably one of the best things I have ever done for myself. You have to follow your passions, and business was not my passion. I love this new major and all of the new ideas and jobs that it opens up to me. Bidness was interesting, but I wasn't cut out to think that way. That's simple not the way I'm wired.
Today I had a great expierecne: I had the oportunity to attend an entrepreneur conference held here on cmpus for business and comm majors. I originally only went to recieve the promised extra credit for two classes, but I found as i listened that i was filled with excitment and a desire to develop what was dubbed the "entrepreneur spirit".
At aproxametly 10 AM, TOMs shoes was introduced as a great example of entrepreneurship, and still hasn't left my mind. It is 1:23 now. The love people have for others, and the desire to give back is such a great gift, and if it's something you posess, I beg you to cultivate it. The world needs more people like that.
Basically, all of this drive to better myself and better the world has led me to the library, where I have spent the lst hour researching programs like TWLOHA and TOMs shoes and figuring out ways that I can get involved. It's still the internet, but at least it's productive.

0095.

Summer oh nine is really shaping up to be the summer of dreams. I love all of my classes, so that is making it a lot easier to get good grades. My mom told me if i get good grades this summer and in the fall I can go to New Zealand for the winter. Thats the best motivation I think I could be offered.

The other thing that has made this summer so great is the creation of SassyKat.

http://www.myspace.com/gosassykat

A lot of really great things are happening this summer and I am loving it.

travel

Italy

London

Boston

Hawaii

Greece

France

0094.

I had ben sad for a while, but it seems to have gone away now, which is great and MUCH appreciated.

Me and amy actually got to go to the temple together today, and i didn't even miss class--wasn;t even late!  I was sure I was going to, but it all worked out.

0093.

This week has been really hard for several reason; some i can't pin down, some i don't want to admit, and some that i can't really explain.

I know that there have already been like 1,000,000,000,000,000,000 blessings in my life--even just this summer--but sometimes I get into a bad funk and i can't get myself out for a while.  The best way for me to deal with it is just to talk about it.  

A lot.  

thanks to all the people that have ever listened.

No one things really triggered it this time.  I think it was a few things.  I don't really know, but I do know that I don't want it anymore.

I need to set it free.

that is why i am going to make a list of all the things that I am grateful for, and list of the things i need to remember.  

I'm grateful for/becasue

-Long-boards

-Music Outlet

-SassyKat

-Acoustic Cafe

-Musical inspiration

-Letters from Missionaries

-the MTC

-Missionaries

-Summer 09

-Music

-Friends

-guitars, banjos, harmonicas, and accordions

-art spulies

-Patriarchal Blessings

-having a temple in the city i go to college in

-my classes are great

-this is what i have wanted my whole life

-porter park (even with all of its baggage)

-my ward

-i get to go to school in idaho

-people here have my standards

-people support and aid your growth

-my teachers are really good

-i got to see christine into the MTC

-blessings

-i got to see my dad

-i've already had several really great days this summer

-i think ill make good grades this summer :)

-zoology is awesome

-communications is a much better major than bidness

-choose your own adventure

-i don't care

-make it count.  always.  that motto will never die. (just be smart about it this time.)

This is what I need to do/remember, sometimes it's just hard.

-who i am

-be true to yourself

-don't try to be something you're not

-don't try and hind something you are

i'm really glad that tomorrow is sunday.  

revenge is a dish best served cold.

I don't have it out for anyone, i just think that is a beautiful statement.

0092.

This has been one of the most fun filled and crazy weeks of my life. Utah and back in less that 25 hours. My sister went into the MTC. Acoustic cafe.

LOTS OF TIME TO THINK.

Today i skipped religion today to do homework; I probably could have gone. I was going to go, but the very last second something told me to stay.
As i was in the lab working though, I started talking to the girl next to me about missions and dating and boys and settling. What she told me was exactly what i needed to hear, and it was so cool because it was from a stranger, not just my friends telling me what i want to hear.
We really need to be willing to be friends with everyone and talk to everyone because you never know when you could be answering someones prayer.

I TAKE IT BACK...

Today was the best day ever!

Happy 19th Makana.

0091.

BEST DAY EVER!

tryouts :)

beatles

fountain

0090.

The sundays in rexburg just keep out doing themselves.  I am so glad that there was the CES fire side tonight.

Today I had two huge testimony boosters and i am grateful for them.

6 words was all it took. "Thank you for bearing your testimony".  6 words and an avalanche of revelation followed.

thank you for being my catalyst.

On a less spiritual note, i got running shoes this weekend and im starting this week off with a bang and turning summer 09 into fit fest 09!

im getting in shape this summer.

you're just jealous cause we're young and in love.

i cant remember what number I am on...

This summer is already crazy. I love all of my classes but I am in the l.i.b. constantly. It's all work I like though so i don't really mind doing it all day. I really want to try and get straight As this semester, and make my mom proud. She said if i do she will let me bring her camera out to school and take a photography class with it :).
It's really nice to be able to go to one house and see everyone, even if it is sad not being able to live there myself. I think it will all work out though. I love rexburg and all of the people here. I really have been so lucky with all the friends that I have made here; sometimes I really don't know how i got so lucky.
I'm sorry that I'm such a recluse sometimes. I just have a lot on my mind unually and I havent learned how to get it to stop yet. I didn't use to be this way, but i crashed a lot more then. I think I'm still just learning how to balance everything, but the one thing i have learned with out a shadow of a doubt is when you make time for church things, it gets easier to organize the rest too.
I really have learned a lot in the last year and I feel like I've mad some pretty radicle changes. Maybe they aren't noticable to others, but I can tell.

Summer 09. Choose your own adventure.

0089.

Today was great, my ward is way fly, and i also got to see everyone (minus the boy) from summer 08.  It all just kind of fell together for me.  I am so excited for summer 09!

0088.

the week's run down so far:

wednesday the 8th: left MN at 6 am drove drove drove
thursday the 9th: saw the high school boys, makana, and cody. Crashed in Rexburg.
Friday the 10th: drove to utah, temple square, slept at grandma's.
saturday the 11th: Drove to provo, saw some friends, saw thorn, back to SLC then back to grandma's.
Easter Sunday: up at 5 am. Drove to airport in SLC, flew to baltomore and caught a shuttle to NIH.

Today was full of blood work, exams, doctors appointments, naps on couches and hospital floors, and even more tests. Pizza hut for dinner and tomorrow it starts all over again.

0087.

more day.

So many things I'll never learn,

you can't cross bridges that you've burned...

...You say that I'm a DREAMER i say you're a NONBELIEVER.

take out the light; start screaming.

Beautiful thing of the day:  Good Charlotte: Good Charlotte.  I figured since I am going to Benji and Joel's stomping ground (DC) next week,  I should give them some spin time.  

Summah Goals:

i for real have done this about six times since being home, but since I am leaving on wednesday at 5 am (which is practically the same thing as tomorrow night, which is practically today) I decicded to do a last glance/updated version.

-Don't buy ANY clothes.  Just look though everything i already have if i get an urge to shop.

-Buy jewelry off e bay, it's flier and cheeper, and only like 3 pieces tops.

-don't eat out at all.  Once a month if it's a special like roomie thing or something.  but for real, thats tops.

-Read instead of going on line to stare at things.

-but books used off amazon.  They are like a penny.  no lie.

-Do an art project (poem, alphabook, painting, song...) a week.  At least every two weeks.

-keep up on my long term projects (art journal, ect...)

-use sundays to read the scriptures, read books, and write missionaries. ( i cant say "the boys" anymore thanks to christine :D)

-Temple every other saturdays at least.

-read the BOM every night (at least a chapter)

-Go to DI and only buy things i REALLY need.  Things I'm excited enough about i want to wear them home, and books i would really read and value in life.

-DONT BUY ANYTHING BUT FOOD FIRST-HAND!

0086.

After reconsidering, I think I might have found new hair inspiration.

0085.

The beautiful thing of the day is in some ways conference, but since that is kind of differently beautiful to each person, so I though I would also pick another beautiful thing of the day, and it is SKYLINES.

I have always been drawn to skylines and the millions of secrets and untold stories they hide.

On another plane of life, I leave in 3 days!   But we re leaving really early on wednesdya (like 5 am) so it's really like two days.  Tomorrow is final packing day, and tuesday is achievment, which means that I'm going to be super busy and the time is going to fly!